FIRM This Fanny

141.5

Ugh .. I have been this exact weight every Wednesday for the past 3 weeks. Weekends are trying sabotaging me. Or I am sabotaging myself on the weekends. I just lose all control and have a 'what the hell' attitude. Since I am less than 10 lbs from goal I really think I need to focus on exercise. I am hoping that exercise, along with my same eating plan of low-carb and intermittant fasting that I will make it there. My goal was to be 138 by Saturday but I'm not so sure I'll make it there since I screwed up over the weekend.

Today I did the Firm's Calorie Killer. Man I am out of shape - big time! I am doing the beginner modifications. I figure if I kill myself I won't want to do it so I am getting back into the swing of things slowly. I created a rotation based on the Firm's 90 Day rotation. I would like to use all the DVDs that I have.

Here is the hair color and style I want. Mine is still a bit short for this since by big chop in August but I'm close to it. I'll post pictures later.

Weekends are my downfall

I haven't posted because I have been so mad at myself. I did great all week last week then comes Saturday and my sister comes up to visit. We got into a huge fight last year and went almost a year without even speaking. We have only recently made up so since she came up here to visit me and my sisters hung out. 3 girls get pretty day and drink all day. Fun but man I am paying for it on the scale!

I need to focus on the weekends and not ruin all my hard work during the week. I am really going to try to focus on exercise in order to lose this last 10 lbs. I'm back to doing Firm videos! After not doing them in a long time they are kicking my ass!

144 - Oh My

Huge scale spike today! I was up 1.5 lbs from Sunday and I'm up 2.5 lbs since Friday morning. Wasn't a very good weekend with eating. Major binge on Friday night then just ate crap all weekend. I've spent the morning beating myself up so now I'm ready to just make a plan and stick to it.

Back to Atkins induction .. I am hoping induction will get rid of some of the cravings I've been having for bready and sugary things. If I can stick to induction for the next 2 weeks I'll allow myself a free meal on October 19th. My sister is running a race down at the shore so we will go for pizza and beer afterwards. It's hard work watching all those people run!

Today
B: Coffee (2)

L: 4 slices bacon, 1 scrambled egg

D: Chicken and a salad

Exercise: None - I was planning on walking but it was too cold for me. I'm such a wuss. Tomorrow I have to start doing the Firm workouts! Exercise has been a huge problem for me lately!

A New Update: 142.5

I just couldn't do the Alternate Day Fasting .. I did fine on the fasting day but total binge-fest on the eat days. I can't tolerate those extremes ..so back to the tried and true.. 2 meals, no snacks, no 'white at nite'. I had an aweful eating weekend (great otherwise). We finally made up with my sister (after a year!) so we spent the entire day hanging out eating and drinking and catching up. Today is back on track. Yesterday I only had 1 meal but had a small calzone. I was so tired from the day before.

I'm just going to try to post quick regarding the days food/exercise.

Today

Lunch (ate at noon): 3 slices bacon & small bagel

Dinner: chicken & salad. I'm going to try a new recipe!

Exercise: None. Back on my walks tomorrow!!

Rough Week

I just didn't have "it" in me last week. I lost my diet / exercise mojo and then came Memorial Day weekend - forget it. I ate 'normal' (i.e. carbs) all weekend so I pretty much maintained at 144-145 but my goal for the month was to get to 140. Highly doubt I'll make that one! I am not bashing myself for it though. I have set a goal of 135 for July 4th so if I stay on track I should get there. I am doing Atkins Induction so that I get into ketosis and lose this hunger and water weight. I keep telling myself that the first few days are the hardest. Summer is the hardest time of year for me too - BBQ's, cocktails outside on the deck .. torture!

I didn't workout last week either. I had my period and I was tired! A lot of pressure at work last week and I just didn't have it in me. Oh well back on track as of yesterday. I did Jiggle Free Arms yesterday and Maximum Body Shaping is in store for today - actually after I finish this post I will be down there working out.

Does anyone have any suggestions for mentally getting through the last 10 lbs - I just feel like I'm losing steam and thoughts of I look good enough now keep entering my head.

Oh I was down 1 lb from yesterday - 144.5 today ...

Sluggish

I was down yesterday morning to 142.5 - today I'm up to 144. The joys of that time of month! I feel miserable and don't want to workout. I am just exhausted and hungry! I had some snacks yesterday of saltines and had some pasta with my dinner. I made the best meat and gravy from a recipe I found online. I will try to find it again and post the link - I threw out the recipe last night after dinner.

I am trying to learn a new responsibility at work (yippee more money / hours) but it is a bit stressful.

I have been doing this thing lately - since I have about 10 lbs to reach my goal. I do this thing of if I am up on the scale I am really good that day but if I have a good weigh-in day I tend to just have an 'I don't care' attitude. It seems like I am self-sabotaging myself if that makes sense. I am so freakin' tired of dieting. I have lost 30 lbs since Thanksgiving - I know that isn't a fast lost but I have been depriving myself the whole time.

I am not working out today and I didn't workout yesterday. I just don't feel like it and I am a crampy bitch today .... this sucks!

UPDATE: I found the link for the Beef Cubes and Gravy. I didn't have red wine or tomato paste so I just used a small amount of tomato sauce and water in lieu of the wine. Even my husband liked it and he usually hates my cooking!

Finally

After 5 days I am finally back down to my weight of 143.5 which I was on Saturday before my cheat/binge/refeed - whatever you want to call it. Wow that was a rough one to recover from and now today I am so freakin' hungry I can't even tell you. I don't feel like working out today but I think it will make me feel better. I am scheduled to do Cardio Sculpt with Allie. I really enjoy that workout but I'm just feeling lazy today. This has been the worst week and I can't wait til Friday!!

My goal is to get to 142 by this week. I am a bit unsure whether I can do it or not - it's not the end of the world if I am a bit off.

So for the first time I did the Firm's stability ball workout with Allie. It was a fairly easy workout but I think I could've challenged myself more once I get used to using the ball. I blew up the ball right before the workout and it was way too small. It looked like 1/2 the size that the instructors were using. The thing about this workout is that some of the exercises are just too easy and some are very challenging. She tries to get a sculpting workout for the whole body just using the ball. I also think I bought my ball too small. I bought the size that was recommended for my height (5'6") but it still seems much smaller than it should be. I am going to try to blow it up somemore to see if I can get it bigger. I liked the workout because it really was something completely different. It is a 30 minute workout.

Binge Recovery

I had a classical binge on Saturday night. I was down to 143.5 on Saturday morning but we ordered out on Sat night for Mother's Day and I went to town. I had a meatball parm sub, chips, ice cream cone and chinese dumplings. The funny part is that I was so hungry that I didn't hurt after eating all of that food. I totally enjoyed it and didn't feel guilty. But now I am dealing with the consequences. FUN FUN

I was up 4 pounds the next day!! I couldn't believe it! I still am not down to my weight on Sat AM of 143.5. I have been 146 for the past 2 days. It will take me all week to recover from this! No more binges / refeeds / cheats - whatever you want to call it until I reach my goal!!!

I also had a ton of stress yesterday because of our whacky tenants in our rental property. God they are the biggest pain in the asses .. even the neighbors don't like them! So I am taking today off from working out. I will still get in 5 workouts but I just felt like taking today off!!

DOWN!!

143.5 Yippeee!!! My goal for the week was 143 but considering I have stayed at 145 all week I will take it. I have had wine every night this week and I think that the sugar in the wine effects my losses. I do drink wine with seltzer though but next week it is just vodka and crystal light. I enjoy my cocktails and I am not giving them up for my diet!!

I can't believe I have 8.5 lbs to go to reach my goal. I haven't been that weight in a long time!! I told my sister that it took me over 10 years to lose my pregnancy weight!

I was a very bad girl and got some new firm videos (the cardio weight series). I have only done Burn and Shape which was good and I was sore afterwards but it was a bit difficult to follow. I am hoping that I will get it after doing it a few more times. It is nice doing a firm video that doesn't have leg press. Man I hate leg press!!

My weight will definately not be this tomorrow - I am having a "refeed" tonite for Mother's day. I am getting a meatball parm sub, chips, soda, ice cream cone and some chinese duplings. I am going to be bad and not feel guilty about it. I am so freakin' hungry I can't even describe it. I've barely eaten all week and now I want some good junk / crap food!!

Busy Bee

WOW it's been awhile since I've posted. I have been so super busy lately. My husband just launched his new pet project website Metapeeps - What People Think About People. It is obviously still in beta but any comments or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I also was given more responsibilities at work (more hours yah!!) so super busy time for me.

It's a rainy Friday here in Jersey - I'll post later about weight. It's going well - stuck at the same weight all week. That's a bit frustrating but I had wine all week and usually I don't drink wine during the week. I'll give that up next week and just stick with vodka :)

Here is a funny email I received today .. Enjoy the weekend!!!

Married Life

Three women: one engaged, one married, and one a mistress, chatting about their relationships and decide to amaze their men....that night all three will wear a leather bodice S&M style, stilettos and mask over their eyes . After a few days they meet again.....

The engaged girlfriend said: 'The other night, when my boyfriend came back home, he found me in the leather bodice, 4' stilettos and mask. He said, 'You are the woman of my life, I love you, then we made love all night long.'

The mistress stated: 'Oh Yes! The other night we met in the office. I was wearing the leather bodice, mega stilettos, mask over my eyes and a raincoat. When I opened the raincoat, he didn't say a word. We just had wild sex all night.'

The married one then said: 'The other night I sent the kids to stay at my mother's for the night, I got myself ready, leather bodice, super stilettos and mask over my eyes. My husband came in from work, grabbed the TV controller and a beer, and said, 'Hey Batman, what's for dinner ?'